I want to get drunk so badly after this week. I spent time with my Family. I moved far far away for a reason. The triggers and emotional pain I went through this week were pure fucking Hell. I now realize now why I blacked out most of my childhood as it was my brain was protecting myself against the memories of growing up with their bullshit. I am so fucking grateful I am breaking their generational curses with my children and letting them be kids and play and learn and grow and just be actually fucking happy without them constantly bullying them. Fuck, they ruined me. I know now why I am the way I am. Thanks for the lifetime of major mental health issues! I thank God I'm nothing like them. I'm not going to drink but I really want to and I just needed to rant and get this out of my mind. Fuck them. I'm sorry for all the swearing but 🤬😭