I’ve had so much on my mind I haven’t even posted once. Constantly lost in my grief I try to drown it with what I can which is how I ended up with an addiction in the first place… the anniversary of my youngest daughters passing is coming up and I feel so on edge like I could break… the best news is I have no access to my former easily crushed friend. The bad news is that it’s all i want right now even after two years sober I just want to numb the pain and forget how shitty life is