My birthday is on thanksgiving and I’m very anxious about it. My birthdays are usually not very eventful and I havnt had a sober one yet. Every year for my birthday I just want one day to be about me, and to feel appreciated, but that has never happened, I end up relying on substances to support my desire to feel acknowledged. Since it is on thanksgiving i dont want to go to my boyfriends families because all they do is drink and party, and the only family i have is my mom and dad. I feel very worried im going to cave on my negative emotions and drink alcohol. I’ve been having trouble and validating it in my mind that it’s okay to drink that one day, because i never had a problem with alcohol, just weed. But deep down i know it’s not just staying sober from weed that’s important to me, it’s being able to say I havnt touched a mind altering substance within my clean time. Let me know any advice yall may have. Happy holidays 💗