I thought I chose to be alone. I thought I wanted it, but once you came into my life and I felt that warmth that happiness, the joy. Then you strip it away. I realize I don’t wanna be alone anymore. I realize I choose to be alone so I don’t feel like how i feel now . I choose to be alone so nobody sees my true colors. I think I’m protecting myself, but maybe I’m making it worse. I sleep longer because I love my dreams. I’d rather live in my dreams more than reality. How bad that sounds. It really brings me peace