Hi there, Its been a while... Here is a little update from me, if you have read my previous post. I am now trying to focus on myself. I'm seeing a therapist every 2-3 weeks, I am not working fulltime because of my health (I'm anemic) so i work 16 hours now instead of 32. I try to enjoy life again, not using any kind of drugs, I still do drink alcohol in the weekends but I try to not go every weekend. I'm super tired, even more than when I worked 32 hours a week. But now my body kinda gets rest and now I feel how tired I've been, but I didn't feel it before because of the using and staying in surviving mode.. I still have no contact with my ex and he doesn't want any type of contact with me (although we work at the same bar in the weekends) he still even owes me money but I'm never seeing that back again. And my ex (female) best friend doesn't speak to me anymore, she does talk about me badly so I don't want contact either. The boy who let me do stuff with him that I didn't want to do... I've talked with him last week, he apologized to me. I forgave him this one time, but I'll never forget what he did to me so I won't be able te be friends with him like we used to..