Man is my higher power testing me to see if I will respond in the way that I normally do. All this emotion and heavy energy. I’m doing my best. But it’s hard. It’s really hard to be known as a “drunk ass” my sister sent me a screenshot of her bank balance basically throwing in our faces how much better she is doing than us. Is made at me because she thinks I’m unloyal to her because my step dad asked me to drive him to pick up his car. I’ve lived in this house for about a year and known him since I was 17. I’m almost 30. She told me that I’m just another piece of ass since I’m living rent free. She doesn’t like him so she said any sister who can give him a ride isn’t a friend to me. I swear I’m being tested to not use. She’s always been this explosive but now saying she’s gonna keep her kids away from me hurts. She’s always treated me this way. She never liked me. It’s always something. 30 years of something. I’m learning how to practice detachment.